I miss it terribly, but my little family is going through incredibly hard times, and my beloved facebook friends only made it worse. I got so many messages last week, and I really didn't want to reply to them, but at the same time, I really didn't want people to think I'm ignoring them (even though, for my own sanity, I am). So, I decided it would be best to just digitally disappear for a while, until I have something more positive I can say.
It's not that I mind explaining what's going on, but most people wouldn't understand.
If you and your spouse have never spent a decade of youth, and 200000+ dollars pursuing a dream, only to watch it die over the span of three years, then it's hard to understand.
If you've never given up everything in exchange for something that turned out to be nothing, then you probably wouldn't understand.
If you aren't a doctor, or the spouse of a doctor then you probably won't understand the immense weight of this statement: Dr A didn't get a match... again.
What does this mean, laymen?
It means that for another year everything we've spent the better part of a decade working toward is on hold.
It means that we have to start paying back student loans, without the career that those students loans were spent on.
It means we have to find someplace new (re: cheaper) to live.
It means depression, anger, frustration...
It means another year of struggling to get by.
It means I just want to hide from everyone I know until March 2013, even though I could be writing this same post next year too, because when it comes to the NRMP there are no guarantees.
Basically, it means we're screwed.